Why don’t you like me?

Why don’t you like me?

Is it because I cry

Too much and too often

And you wonder why?


Why don’t you like me?

Is it because I’m too raw

And being with me isn’t easy

And you didn’t like what you saw?


Why don’t you like me?

Is it because I can be cold

To protect my heart from being hurt again

Despite what I’ve been told?


Why don’t you like me?

Is it because of how I feel,

The way I think about things

And with my sensitivity you can’t deal?


It hurts to be taken for granted.

It hurts to like and not be liked back.

It hurts when I have to hide the real me

Because the fake me has a better chance.


Maybe I won’t get the answers

To the questions which I ask.

Yet I know God will love me

Even when I take off the mask.

Washington

In Between Land

It’s not hot… it’s not cold…

It’s not dull… it’s not bold…

This is the in between land…

This isn’t good… this isn’t bad…

I’m not happy… I’m not sad…

This is the in between land…

Things aren’t far… things aren’t near…

Things aren’t loathed… things aren’t dear…

This is the in between land…

There’s no beginning… there’s no end…

I don’t stand out… I don’t blend…

This is the in between land…

It’s not short… it’s not long…

It’s not perfect… it’s not wrong…

This is the in between land…

They always say…

They always say…

It’ll be okay.

They always say…

Bad things won’t stay.

What if it’ll never be okay?

What if bad things always stay?

What if there isn’t a happy ending?

What if there isn’t always mending?

What if some things never change?

What if pain goes beyond the range?

Some things in life are broken.

Some things are better left unspoken.

This isn’t an escape.

This isn’t an excuse.

This is acknowledgement

To avoid self-abuse.

One day though, God will wipe away my tears [Revelation 21:4].

On that day I can truly leave behind my fears.

Rajasthan

Wearing a Mask

Although I was once clearer than glass…
Now I must wear this mask.

Behind this mask are my hopes and dreams…
Too simplistic for the world they seem.

Behind this mask my eyes reach for the stars…
Behind this mask I hide my scars.

Although this mask hides the true me…
It has become a part of my identity.

I took off the mask for some to see…
Some parts were beautiful, yet others were ugly.

Only a few can stand with me when my mask falls apart…
They love me without my mask since they love my heart.

Perhaps there will be a day when I need the mask no more…
Till then I need it to hide my core.