Why don’t you like me?

Why don’t you like me?

Is it because I cry

Too much and too often

And you wonder why?


Why don’t you like me?

Is it because I’m too raw

And being with me isn’t easy

And you didn’t like what you saw?


Why don’t you like me?

Is it because I can be cold

To protect my heart from being hurt again

Despite what I’ve been told?


Why don’t you like me?

Is it because of how I feel,

The way I think about things

And with my sensitivity you can’t deal?


It hurts to be taken for granted.

It hurts to like and not be liked back.

It hurts when I have to hide the real me

Because the fake me has a better chance.


Maybe I won’t get the answers

To the questions which I ask.

Yet I know God will love me

Even when I take off the mask.

They always say…

They always say…

It’ll be okay.

They always say…

Bad things won’t stay.

What if it’ll never be okay?

What if bad things always stay?

What if there isn’t a happy ending?

What if there isn’t always mending?

What if some things never change?

What if pain goes beyond the range?

Some things in life are broken.

Some things are better left unspoken.

This isn’t an escape.

This isn’t an excuse.

This is acknowledgement

To avoid self-abuse.

One day though, God will wipe away my tears [Revelation 21:4].

On that day I can truly leave behind my fears.

Alone

There is a certain coldness

That heat can’t melt away.

There is a certain aloneness

Since nobody chooses to stay.

Thoughts come and go

Time just passes by.

I don’t no what to do so

I just lie here and cry.

If I try to explain

It doesn’t make any sense.

To those who don’t know this pain

It’s just a bunch of nonsense.

I’m not sure if I will ever find

Someone who can truly love me…

After seeing my wounds and hurts and mind…

And still love what they see.

This is just a feeling, I know I’m loved

By the one who created the stars above…

By those who I call family and friends…

Their love for me will never end.

Is it really that hard?

Here I sit, far away…

Wondering if anyone would ever stay…

When things get real and life gets rough…

When everything in life seems tough.

Is it really that hard to hold my hand?

Is it really that hard… with me to stand?

Why is it always someone else who occupies the heart?

Will I ever get an opportunity… to even start?

Yet, this I believe, that God has a plan…

Above every possible imagination of man (Isaiah 55:8-9).

Someday He will let me see…

What He really wanted me to be.

Midnight Light

I wait here standing in the night…

Searching for a glimmer of light.

In every direction I try to find…

A shadow… formed from light of some kind.

 

Why am I here… my heart repeats…

Why does my heart even beat?

Is there something more to this life…

Than the pursuit of happiness… and strife?

 

As I search for answers… the stars emerge…

And I feel my hope surge.

You are the way, the truth, the life, the light (John 14:6, John 8:12)

Like stars glimmering in the midnight.

When you are…

When you are lost

and when you feel afraid…

Remember that you were fearfully

and wonderfully made. [Psalms 139:14]

 

When you feel numb

and everything is slipping like sand…

Remember that you

are engraved on God’s hands. [Isaiah 49:15-16]

 

When you feel lonely

and when you feel betrayed…

Remember that God will never forsake you…

and with you, He will always stay… [Deuteronomy 31:6]

 

When you feel tired

and you have tried your best…

Bring your burden to Him

for He will give you rest. [Matthew 11:28-29]

 

When you feel that you are not good enough

or that you have guilt you can’t be free of…

Remember that God died for you

Because of His everlasting love. [John 3:16]

The Truth of Life

Life can seem weary…

Life can seem lonely…

Life can seem incomplete…

After all… you wanted something small only…

 

You are loyal…

You are strong…

You don’t understand what is wrong…

 

So you search and you try…

And you wonder why…

You can’t get the harmless desire of your heart…

 

Have faith, you will get there…

One day you will receive

Something that will fill your heart

And bring you peace…

 

Till then, life can be unfair…

At all times… you will have to be prepared…

Never give up on having faith

That one day… it will all be okay… [Revelation 21:3-5]

 

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Saying Goodbye

Saying goodbye can be necessary
Although it may not always seem easy…
There is so much to say and so much left undone
Yet it’s time to say goodbye… since the battle couldn’t be won…

I hope you are always happy
I hope you are always free…
Even though we couldn’t make it
You meant a lot to me…

This goodbye marks a new beginning
For both of us right now…
Time will tell the reason we had to part,
For who, why and how…

You taught me a lot and were with me
When things were bleak and I couldn’t see…
Now all I can do is pray with all my heart
That God guides us to make a new start…

Faith

 

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I know I have done much wrong

Yet, with faith, I write this song

That you will forgive all my sins

And with your love, you will rinse

My heart and my very soul

Turning into diamond, what was once coal

 

You’ve made me, shaped me and saved me

In me, what did you see?

That for my sins you died

And my tears you dried

 

I bow my knees before you and pray

Please guide me everyday

Without you, there is nothing in this life

Worth the sorrow and the strife

 

Give me the courage to guide

Others, so they can reach your side

And help me believe in your plan

Above the earth, sky and man

 

 

Miracles

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There may be low probability

There may be no possibility

Every path may look dark

Without a single spark

 

For life, there may be no respect

Nothing left to hope or expect

When eyes open, tears may be shed

When the heart is hurt, hope may be bled

 

When there is commotion all around

Pray in your heart, without a sound

You will begin to see

How wonderful a miracle can be

 

What was improbable and impossible

By God’s grace has now become possible

What was unthinkable and unbelievable

Has now become receivable

 

What couldn’t be conquered by logic and the mind

Has been conquered by having faith and being kind

 

For all those who have wanted to cry

Now is the time for your tears to dry

Wake up from your dreams and see

From your burdens you have been set free

 

Preach to everyone who is around

This message, beautiful and profound

The things with humans which are impossible

With God, our savior, they are possible