Here I sit, far away…
Wondering if anyone would ever stay…
When things get real and life gets rough…
When everything in life seems tough.
Is it really that hard to hold my hand?
Is it really that hard… with me to stand?
Why is it always someone else who occupies the heart?
Will I ever get an opportunity… to even start?
Yet, this I believe, that God has a plan…
Above every possible imagination of man (Isaiah 55:8-9).
Someday He will let me see…
What He really wanted me to be.
I’m not sure what it feels like…
To know when love starts.
I’m not sure what it feels like…
To be in someone’s heart.
I’m not sure what it feels like…
To not hide under this hood.
I’m not sure what it feels like…
To be understood.
I’m not sure what it feels like…
To smile without reason.
I’m not sure what it feels like…
To have someone in every season.
I’m not sure what it feels like…
To have a future in sight.
I’m not sure what it feels like…
To have someone who feels right.
I’m not sure what it feels like…
To have something more than lust.
I’m not sure what it feels like…
To have someone you can trust.
आज बड़ी मुश्किल से खुद को बताया
की अब, तुम्हारी हर याद को है मिटाना
आज बड़ी मुश्किल से हमने है दिन कटा
बिन तुम्हारे, और तुम्हारे यादों से होके जुदा
आज बरी मुश्किल से हमने संभाला
इस टूटे दिल के बिखड़े टुकड़ों को
आज बरी मुश्किल से है मनाया
इस रूठे मॅन को, जो देना चाहे तुम्हे सज़ा
आज बरी मुश्किल से हमने हटाया
अपने जीवन से पहचान तुम्हारा
आज बरी मुश्किल से हमने मुस्कुराया
और जाना की ये है मुमकिन तुम्हारे बिना
आज बरी मुश्किल से हमने पहचाना
की तुमने सिखाया है, अपने पाओं पे होना खड़ा
आज बरी मुश्किल से हमने माँगी दुआ
की तुम बसाओ अपनी नई दुनिया
Na jane kya jaadu kiya hai tumne
Lagta hai warsoein se jaanu tumhe
Na jane kahan tum gayab ho gaye
Tumhare bina ab ji na lage
Jab dil mera roye
Kaun mujhe hasaye
Jab main kisi se roothoon
Kaun mujhe manaye
Kisko bataun, kaise samjhaoon
Kaun hai mera yahan
Wapas aakar, sab kuch bhulakar
Banaye ek naya jahan
And I surreptitiously, hopelessly wonder why
Between us there is so much affection
An unnamable, unspeakable, indescribable connection
Of all the memories have lost and found
Yours’ speak to me without a sound
Of all the memories I collect
With yours’ I can truly connect
Like the constellations in the stars above
Our lives, now revolve around our love
With each passing day we begin to feel
The love grow stronger as we heal
In your eyes I see my reflection
And our deep, cherished connection
I don’t know what to see,
The heart breaking moment,
Or your heart taking smile
I don’t know what to feel,
My pounding heart when you are near,
Or that you’ll leave me… my constant fear
I don’t know what to hear
Your promises, which I treasure
Or the ones you broke, which I can’t measure
I don’t know what to say
I hope this lasts forever
Or, I’m sorry but we can’t be together
I know, that you aren’t mine anymore
I know, that you knew this from before
I know, somebody else took your heart by theft
I know, there isn’t anything left
I know, that you will be gone
I know that now, I have to move on…
Somebody else has stolen your heart.
I was always scared, right from the start,
That somebody would come, stay,
And slowly steal your heart away.
Am I the only one who can see,
You slowly drifting away from me?
Am I the only one who can feel,
That ‘this’ is no longer real?
Does it really have to be so tough?
Is my beating heart not enough?
Or is it that you want to see,
Something that is not in me?
I’ve held you close too long.
In doing so I was wrong.
Now, I am leaving you free,
To see what you want to see.
Never, ever come back again,
As everything we were, went down the drain.
I wish you happiness, peace and joy,
With hope, that you won’t treat her like a toy.
I come to you, eyes blurred with tears
With mascara stains and lipstick smears.
I see you and give a weak smile
Inside, crying all the while.
Your eyes find mine and we stare for long
How, in the world did everything go wrong?
I came here in search of acceptance and love
A friend who would help me rise above
My broken dreams and shattered heart.
I can’t even begin to start….
How you were the first one to come to my mind.
The only ray of hope I could find.
We were together in a different world
Memories of which have now blurred
Yet the imprint of those days,
On my heart and soul brought me today
To your doorstep, as familiar as my own
To the friend I thought I had outgrown.
My heart stops beating and I can’t refrain
My hopes, my dreams, my hurt, my pain
I break down on your doorstep, begin to cry
All the while wondering why….
I was so blind that I couldn’t see
What I was doing to you and me.
Candy cane, ferry boats
Wildflowers, mountain goats
Homemade candles, colorful dyes
Carefree smiles, sparkling eyes
Of the many gifts you gave
These memories in my heart I save.
You gather me in your arms, soothe my fears away
And tell me that it’ll all be okay.
We all make mistakes, love and hate
To rise above them it’s never too late
A new beginning is all it takes
A beautiful fulfilling life to make
Your words leave imprints on my soul
Fill the empty lifeless hole
With thoughts so profound and deep
That the truth begins to seep…
And now I can finally see
Why you mean so much to me.
You were and are my only true friend.
Who would never let go…..till the end
I don’t want to believe
In good things again
When all that I can receive
Is longing and pain
I don’t want to deceive
Myself again
Since there is nothing much left to believe
I don’t want to dream
Of things that never happen
We aren’t a team
We weren’t and will never be
I don’t want to beam
When I replay how everything happened
And was taken away, as if a dream
I don’t want to fall in love
When others can feel only the lust
It isn’t something gifted from the above
My heart won’t stop, but it must
I didn’t want to be the reason you drove
Me away from yourself
And I believed we were truly in love
I don’t want to get hurt
Although I may seem strong on the outside
I try very hard not to blurt
Out everything that’s killing me on the inside
I don’t want to be the first
To give up and break down
So I will try my best not to get hurt
Deep down, I still believe
That somebody will come
And teach me how to believe,
Dream and love again
Till then, goodbye
Pieces are shattered in the moonlit night,
Of the heart that broke in the long lost fight.
It broke, when you couldn’t really see,
The girl that she was, and wanted to be
It broke, when you let it fall apart
And deep down somewhere, you knew from the start.
It broke, when she realized your charming smile
Was fake and emotionless, all the while
It broke, when she thought of being with you forever
And unsurprisingly, you thought of it never.
It broke, when she realized all her passion
For you, was nothing more than a transient fashion
It broke, when she gave you everything she had
And you left her like that, broken and sad
If you couldn’t mend the pieces
How could you let it break?
Now there are just traces
Left for her sake
Tears will flow down her eyes
Like a long flowing river
Memories will play through her mind
Seemingly, she will forget them never
It will take a long, long time before she can trust
And open up to someone else
One day she will give the trace of what you left
To a guy who will love her beyond her dreams
Or, probably it’ll be more like theft
Of something, to you worthless that seems
He will mend it and make it beat again,
Love again, hope again, dream again
Thanks to you she will doubt this miracle called love
And he will show her that theirs is way above
Yours ever was, or will be
Finally, from you she will be free
Finally, through the façade he will see
A bright, warm and loving heart
That now, can never be torn apart
Empathy 