Why you mean so much to me :)

I come to you, eyes blurred with tears
With mascara stains and lipstick smears.
I see you and give a weak smile
Inside, crying all the while.
Your eyes find mine and we stare for long
How, in the world did everything go wrong?

I came here in search of acceptance and love
A friend who would help me rise above
My broken dreams and shattered heart.
I can’t even begin to start….
How you were the first one to come to my mind.
The only ray of hope I could find.

We were together in a different world
Memories of which have now blurred
Yet the imprint of those days,
On my heart and soul brought me today
To your doorstep, as familiar as my own
To the friend I thought I had outgrown.

My heart stops beating and I can’t refrain
My hopes, my dreams, my hurt, my pain
I break down on your doorstep, begin to cry
All the while wondering why….
I was so blind that I couldn’t see
What I was doing to you and me.

Candy cane, ferry boats
Wildflowers, mountain goats
Homemade candles, colorful dyes
Carefree smiles, sparkling eyes
Of the many gifts you gave
These memories in my heart I save.

You gather me in your arms, soothe my fears away
And tell me that it’ll all be okay.
We all make mistakes, love and hate
To rise above them it’s never too late
A new beginning is all it takes
A beautiful fulfilling life to make

Your words leave imprints on my soul
Fill the empty lifeless hole
With thoughts so profound and deep
That the truth begins to seep…
And now I can finally see
Why you mean so much to me.
You were and are my only true friend.
Who would never let go…..till the end