Alone

There is a certain coldness

That heat can’t melt away.

There is a certain aloneness

Since nobody chooses to stay.

Thoughts come and go

Time just passes by.

I don’t no what to do so

I just lie here and cry.

If I try to explain

It doesn’t make any sense.

To those who don’t know this pain

It’s just a bunch of nonsense.

I’m not sure if I will ever find

Someone who can truly love me…

After seeing my wounds and hurts and mind…

And still love what they see.

This is just a feeling, I know I’m loved

By the one who created the stars above…

By those who I call family and friends…

Their love for me will never end.

I’m not sure what it feels like…

I’m not sure what it feels like…

To know when love starts.

I’m not sure what it feels like…

To be in someone’s heart.

 

I’m not sure what it feels like…

To not hide under this hood.

I’m not sure what it feels like…

To be understood.

 

I’m not sure what it feels like…

To smile without reason.

I’m not sure what it feels like…

To have someone in every season.

 

I’m not sure what it feels like…

To have a future in sight.

I’m not sure what it feels like…

To have someone who feels right.

 

I’m not sure what it feels like…

To have something more than lust.

I’m not sure what it feels like…

To have someone you can trust.

 

 

 

Why you mean so much to me :)

I come to you, eyes blurred with tears
With mascara stains and lipstick smears.
I see you and give a weak smile
Inside, crying all the while.
Your eyes find mine and we stare for long
How, in the world did everything go wrong?

I came here in search of acceptance and love
A friend who would help me rise above
My broken dreams and shattered heart.
I can’t even begin to start….
How you were the first one to come to my mind.
The only ray of hope I could find.

We were together in a different world
Memories of which have now blurred
Yet the imprint of those days,
On my heart and soul brought me today
To your doorstep, as familiar as my own
To the friend I thought I had outgrown.

My heart stops beating and I can’t refrain
My hopes, my dreams, my hurt, my pain
I break down on your doorstep, begin to cry
All the while wondering why….
I was so blind that I couldn’t see
What I was doing to you and me.

Candy cane, ferry boats
Wildflowers, mountain goats
Homemade candles, colorful dyes
Carefree smiles, sparkling eyes
Of the many gifts you gave
These memories in my heart I save.

You gather me in your arms, soothe my fears away
And tell me that it’ll all be okay.
We all make mistakes, love and hate
To rise above them it’s never too late
A new beginning is all it takes
A beautiful fulfilling life to make

Your words leave imprints on my soul
Fill the empty lifeless hole
With thoughts so profound and deep
That the truth begins to seep…
And now I can finally see
Why you mean so much to me.
You were and are my only true friend.
Who would never let go…..till the end

Left with a Broken Heart

Pieces are shattered in the moonlit night,

Of the heart that broke in the long lost fight.

It broke, when you couldn’t really see,

The girl that she was, and wanted to be

It broke, when you let it fall apart

And deep down somewhere, you knew from the start.

It broke, when she realized your charming smile

Was fake and emotionless, all the while

It broke, when she thought of being with you forever

And unsurprisingly, you thought of it never.

It broke, when she realized all her passion

For you, was nothing more than a transient fashion

It broke, when she gave you everything she had

And you left her like that, broken and sad

If you couldn’t mend the pieces

How could you let it break?

Now there are just traces

Left for her sake

Tears will flow down her eyes

Like a long flowing river

Memories will play through her mind

Seemingly, she will forget them never

It will take a long, long time before she can trust

And open up to someone else

One day she will give the trace of what you left

To a guy who will love her beyond her dreams

Or, probably it’ll be more like theft

Of something, to you worthless that seems

He will mend it and make it beat again,

Love again, hope again, dream again

Thanks to you she will doubt this miracle called love

And he will show her that theirs is way above

Yours ever was, or will be

Finally, from you she will be free

Finally, through the façade he will see

A bright, warm and loving heart

That now, can never be torn apart

Love

Love, by no conditions bound.

Love, in unlikely places found.

Love, the thread that binds us all.

Love, in our hearts the silent call.

Love, true when given by the heart.

Love, stands when all has fallen apart.

Love, the life giving fire.

Love a dream, a hope, a desire.

Love in the midst of sorrow.

Love, hope of a better tomorrow…..